Sunday, May 18, 2008

The Best of Times…the Worst of Times

Kevin & Allison Peterson’s First Year in Dallas

Wow!
It’s hard to imagine that I have now completed my first year at Dallas Theological Seminary! It feels like it was just a few weeks ago that we were pulling away from Northridge Christian Church in our Penske Truck…but my transcript says that the year is over… Now, I realize that most normal people typically write some sort of newsletter around Christmas or New Year’s, but I’m not normal (most of you knew that already), and Christmas 2007 was not a good time for me to be writing anything (for reasons you’ll read in a few paragraphs). This past year was truly a mixture of the best of times and the worst of times (if I can be so bold as to borrow from Dicken’s A Tale of Two Cities). If you’ve kept in contact with us over the past months, you know that to be true…if not, then read on. I’m going to rehearse some of those best and worst times for you now.

Unless you've got some serious time on your hands, I might recommend just reading the monthly captions and looking at the pictures....

MAY 2007:
Allison gets hired by CCA & we announce our departure
In May of 2007, a couple of exciting things happened. Allison and I had both been sensing that God was prompting us toward moving to Dallas so I could further my education at Dallas Theological Seminary for several months. In fact, I had been taking classes online through DTS for the previous two semesters, amassing a total of 10 units. But if we were going to move, we needed some sort of work in the DFW (Dallas Fort Worth) area. God provided a great teaching position at Covenant Christian Academy in Colleyville in answer to our prayers (interesting way that God provided: a different Christian school in the area actually flew Allison out for an interview a few weeks beforehand, and Allison interviewed with CCA while she was out for that interview). On a more subdued note, despite our confidence in God’s leading, it saddened us to now face the reality of leaving our church (Northridge Christian Church) where I was serving as youth pastor and Allison’s school (West Valley Christian School), where she taught full-time and I periodically substituted. We now began announcing our departure to the leadership of both institutions.

JUNE 2007: Allison says goodbye to WVCS & we buy our first home

In June we publicly announced our impending departure to the church and the school. Allison wrapped up her school year and bid a tearful farewell to her students and fellow-teachers, having completed 7 years at WVCS. At this point, we were unsure how we were going to afford to pay for our move… Allison had a job lined up, but I didn’t. And the money we had been saving up had been wiped out by Uncle Sam and Uncle Arnold at tax time in April. But God again demonstrated His provision in the form of provision that paid for our move! Wow! We had been wrestling with what to do about housing in Dallas, and decided it was a good opportunity to take the plunge into homeownership, so I flew out to Dallas for a few days (by myself--Allison was finishing up school) and purchased our first home for $91,000 (with Allison just seeing digital photos over e-mail and hearing descriptions over the phone). Towards the end of the month we made a farewell trip back up to Northern California to visit my parents in Rio Vista and my former church family in Santa Rosa (and to officiate the wedding of Mary Thengvall & Ryan Rotman).

JULY 2007: L
eaving NCC & moving to “Big D”
July was nothing short of crazy! We had a full month of ministry and activities at NCC, including Vacation Bible School. We were also bidding farewell to as many friends as we could prior to our move, including a whirlwind trip down to Ejido Puebla (just outside of Mexicali, Mexico), where I was able to introduce Allison to my other church family (and some of the best tacos on earth at Asadero los Molcajetes). On top of all this, we were busily packing (probably more accurate to say that Allison was busily packing--she did the vast majority of it!). I’ve often been accused of cramming too many things into a schedule, and I think that I outdid myself this month. We had our VBS from the 23rd to the 27th, with our VBS program taking place on Sunday morning, the 29th. We simultaneously finished packing up our duplex, signed papers on our new home, finished up the VBS, packed up my office and other stuff from church, and loaded up our Penske moving truck…needless to say, we didn’t get an awful lot of sleep that week! And we never would have gotten it done were it not for several friends from NCC who came and helped us pack and load and clean! On Sunday morning we pulled into church with the moving truck, locked Hershey into my now almost-empty office, and had our program. After the church service there was a barbecue lunch, after which we bid a tearful farewell to our youth and friends, and began our trek to Texas with Hershey & me in the Penske followed by Allison & her great friend, Stefani Childs, in our minivan. We arrived at our new home on the 31st, and our great friends the Montgomerys and the Bakers (who live in Dallas) met us there to help us unload, in addition to Allison’s parents, who drove out from Florida to meet us. Just a quick comment about the Dallas climate at the end of July: Can you say 100 degrees and 90% humidity? I was dripping with sweat within 10 minutes of semi-effort unloading our car from the car carrier!

AUGUST 2007: Allison starts at CCA & I start at DTS

August began with another bit of craziness for Allison. We arrived on Tuesday afternoon, 7/31, and she began her in-service at CCA on Thursday morning, 8/2. I take full blame for that, but she had to pay the price! Amidst all that, we managed to get things mostly unpacked and reasonably well settled over the course of the next few weeks. And I began my studies full-time at the end of the month at DTS. God had not only provided money for our move (and to invest in some rather pricey car repairs in July and October), but He also provided enough finances for me to be a full-time student--something I had dreamed of, but had never expected… One of the highlights of the first semester was taking a class on Bible study methods taught by Howard Hendricks!

SEPTEMBER 2007: I start teaching at Quest

In September we continued our school routines: Allison teaching drama and high school girls’ Bible while I studied at DTS. God provided a part-time job for me tutoring (it was actually more teaching than tutoring) students at a charter school not too far from our house, which I started on the 10th. It was a different experience for me, since all of my previous teaching experience was in a Christian school setting with pretty respectful students. Quest Academy was in an inner city setting (Oak Cliff) with mostly disinterested and disrespectful students from broken homes. The demographic for the school is 99% minority--mostly Hispanic. We also began leading a Spiritual Formation (SF) group at the seminary, composed of three other couples and us. I also had the humbling development of having to drop my Hebrew class--I had been trying to take both Greek and Hebrew simultaneously (6 of my 16 units), but I couldn't wrap my poor little brain around both languages at the same time--especially Hebrew!

OCTOBER 2007: Car troubles & Tour de Chefs

October continued our school routines with a few twists.
Allison’s school had a major fundraiser for the arts program called Tour de Chefs, which took place at 4 magnificent showpiece homes near CCA. At each home there was a well-known local chef serving some specialty item in addition to some sort of music or drama vignette. It raised around $20,000 for the arts program at CCA! We were also blessed by the very brief visit of a good friend, Jimetta Mayne, who was in town helping lead worship at a conference. It was also a month of financial challenges for us, with our white minivan needing over $3,000 in repairs (transmission & head rebuilt). But God provided just enough to cover the unexpected expenses.

NOVEMBER 2007: House broken into & Hershey shot

November was dominated by a huge trial in our lives. I actually had two weeks off seminary: one week was “Reading Week” followed by a week off for Thanksgiving. I was excited to have a chance to catch up on some studies and to get a couple of projects around the house completed. But my plans were very rudely interrupted as I came home from Quest on the Monday of reading week to find that our house had been broken into (they ultimately matched one set of fingerprints to a 15 year old girl) and our beloved dark chocolate lab, Hershey, was laying in our bathroom, unable to move. The thieves had made off with my laptop (thankfully I had backed it up only a few days beforehand), and other high priced electronic items (ipods, digital camera, etc.). After waiting 100 minutes for the Dallas police to arrive, I finally was able to load Hershey up in the van (assisted by a couple from our SF group) and head off to a veterinary hospital. On the way, as tears streamed down my face, I was finally able to get ahold of Allison, who had been in a rehearsal at school the whole time. Another couple from our SF group thankfully went to CCA and drove her down to meet me at the vet. We were shocked to find out that Hershey had been shot--an x-ray revealed a bullet lodged on her spine just below her neck! It was too risky to try to remove the bullet, and the vet thought she should recover after some steroid treatments and other IV’s. We left her there and headed home to our violated house…and found a bullet hole in our bedroom wall where they had shot and missed… Another shock came the next day when our insurance adjustor informed me that injuries to pets are never covered under any homeowners’ policy--meaning that we would have to pay the $2500 bill on our own… We were able to bring Hershey home a couple of days later and spent the next couple of weeks nursing her towards recovery. I had an alarm system installed at our home as well. We had to cancel a planned trip to St. Louis to be with Allison’s family for Thanksgiving as a result, but spent the day with the Montgomerys, which was a blessing! Thankfully, Hershey has almost fully recovered--except for a small limp on her right front side and a terror whenever she hears a loud noise like thunder. We were also overwhelmed with the outpouring of generosity from folks all over the U.S. who heard of our plight, receiving gifts that covered our vet bill and a good portion of our deductible. We thank God and all of you who blessed us!

DECEMBER 2007: Kevin’s dad passes away

December brought another trial, this one much more serious. On the Saturday before finals my mom called me asking if I could try to convince my dad over the phone to let the paramedics take him to the h
ospital. He had been diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver in the summer and had been growing steadily weaker. He had fallen in their home, and my mom called 911 when she couldn’t get him up, and he was now refusing to go to the hospital. I talked with him for a couple of minutes, and didn’t think that I got anywhere with him, but mom told me he acquiesced shortly after hanging up with me. On Monday afternoon I got the earth-shattering call from mom that the doctors had told her to get any family there ASAP, as dad was hours from death. I got on the earliest flight possible that night and rushed out to California, praying fervently that God would allow me to spend time with dad before he passed away. God answered that prayer, and dad rebounded, and I was able to spend almost two weeks with him, sitting with him in his room for about 14 hours each day with mom and Brian, my older brother. A family from CCA came through at the last second to watch Hershey so Allison was able to come out a few days after me, and dad perked up on her arrival. I had several opportunities during that time to talk with dad about life and death and eternity, and especially about Jesus Christ. I explained the Gospel to him, that Jesus had come to this earth to live a perfect life, to take our sins upon Himself and die for us, paying the penalty for our sins, and then rising again from the dead. And if we would simply believe in Him, if we would trust Him to save us, He would. The most comforting moment of those two weeks was having dad look at Allison and me and make a profession of faith. After that, he grew steadily weaker, until he was essentially comatose for almost two days. Finally, at around 2 am (Allison & I were spending the night in his room because we had a sense that he wasn’t going to make it through the night) on December 29, dad opened his eyes and looked at me. I took his hand and told him, “We love you, dad,” and he breathed his final breath here on this earth and entered into the presence of Jesus in heaven. The next several days were a blur of activity, with Allison and I doing everything we could to help mom get adjusted while preparing for dad’s memorial on January 3 (we’d actually hoped to have it on the 2nd, but the quilting club in their retirement community wouldn’t budge from their stranglehold on the clubhouse that day). God gave me the grace and strength to conduct dad’s memorial on that rainy afternoon… We had planned on splitting time between California (my family) and Florida (Allison’s family), but we were where we needed to be…

JANUARY 2007: Back to school

January had me driving back to Dallas in dad’s minivan--Allison flew back si
nce she had obligations at school. Have you ever driven from Northern California to Dallas? It’s not the most exciting drive--especially since much of my driving was after dark! I got back home (it still feels weird to call Dallas "home"), took my finals that had been patiently waiting for me (somehow ending up with straight A’s for the semester), and re-entered my routine at Quest and a new semester at DTS, while Allison continued her fun at CCA. One of the highlights of the month was the quick visit of the Kellys--Allison taught with Cindy at WVCS--who were in town for a convention.

FEBRUARY 2008: More of the same
February continued with more of the same, but Allison was beginning to ratchet up her activity at CCA in preparation for “The Wizard of Oz” musical that was taking place at the end of March, so we weren’t seeing too much of each other… But I was able to keep up with my studies (for the most part…).


MARCH 2008: e-LEAD & The Wizard of Oz

March had a co
uple of highlights. Allison and I were blessed to be able to attend e-LEAD, a four day intensive that stands for emerging Leadership Evaluation And Development, a “seminar” put on by the Center for Christian Leadership at the seminary (you can learn more by visiting http://www.dts.edu/departments/campus/ccl/lead/ ). It was a profitable but emotionally draining time of counseling and coaching for us (after putting in a number of hours of self-evaluation and receiving evaluation from others--friends and co-workers). Allison finally had her production, “The Wizard of Oz”, with over 90 cast members. It was nothing short of phenomenal--she has a wonderfully talented group there at CCA and she directed them spectacularly! Allison’s mom also flew out to share in the experience, which was a blessing.

APRIL 2008: Taxes & TAKS

April found me winding down my semester at DTS and my job at Quest. I had been hired specifically to help get junior high students ready for the TAKS (Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills) test, the measuring stick for all public schools in Texas which determines their very survival. But once TAKS began on the 28th, my job was over. We also had an unexpected blessing: getting a tax refund instead of having to pay taxes for the first time in a few years! I had actually postponed figuring out our taxes because I found the whole prospect depressing, and was surprised to complete them and find out we were getting a refund! What a blessing!

MAY 2008: Another break-in & what’s next?
So now we’re here in the middle of May. I finished up my finals last week (I'm pretty sure I managed to pull out "A's" again by the grace of God) and Allison will finish up her year at CCA next week. Last Thursday we had the "pleasure" of having our home broken into again--but fortunately our alarm system did its job & the would-be thieves took off without taking anything... We are looking forward to a weekend jaunt to St. Louis at the end of the month to attend a dance recital for two nieces: Kaia & Josie -- it’s been 1½ years since we’ve seen them or any of Allison’s brother’s family!
I have a job offer that I'm going to find out more about on Monday -- it's for a gentleman who loves the seminary and has a business fixing minor paint blemishes on used cars at dealers' lots. I have been interviewed by a couple of churches over the past few months, but neither of them worked out (the second church was influenced in part by some negative feedback)--I'm interviewing with another church seeking a part-time youth pastor this weekend. I’ve registered for classes for next fall, and thankfully will receive a small scholarship from DTS that will help cover a portion of my tuition. I would love to take a class or two over the summer, but am uncertain about our finances--especially since we’re facing the financial challenge of having to replace a rather large retaining wall (see the sagging/bulging wall in the picture) next to our house sometime this summer.

We would like to thank all of you for your friendship and your prayers for us. We count ourselves blessed to have so many wonderful friends and family members! And we covet your continued prayers for us--we are always in need of them! Here are some specific things that you can be praying about:

  • Ministry for Kevin (ideally a paying position)
  • Starting a family (we've been wanting and trying to have children for about a year and a half now...)
May God continue to pour out His riches in His grace to you all!

In His Love,

Kevin & Allison Peterson (& Hershey)


Update:
I accepted the job working for the "Chip Doctor", so it looks like I'll be enjoying the mild (tongue firmly planted in cheek) Dallas summer fixing paint chips on car lots around the metroplex....

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Please Pray for My Dad, Don Peterson

I got off the phone with my mom & dad a few minutes ago... He's in the new Kaiser Medical Center in Antioch, California. God answered our prayers of last night, because he agreed to go to the hospital a few minutes after my mom hung up the phone last night after refusing to go for quite a while before that.

We actually got a preliminary update from my mom at 4:30 am this morning (2:30 Pacific time), as she had just returned home from the hospital. The latest diagnosis is this: my dad is experiencing a complete liver failure....the cirrhosis that he was diagnosed with a few months ago seems to have run its course... According to the doctors, what he really needs is a liver transplant, but he's far to weak to survive that. So they are treating an infection that he has with antibiotics and are hydrating him, etc....but there doesn't seem to be anything that they can do other than to treat his symptoms and try to keep him comfortable... Mom is hoping for more information tomorrow when the specialists are able to examine him....

So we're asking that you continue to pray for him--especially that he would come to faith in Christ... I've asked a couple of pastor friends in Antioch if they would visit him... Please also pray that God would strengthen him physically and mentally. He told me that he was going to fight this as much as he could and that he is looking forward to seeing Allison and me on Saturday....that's an improvement in attitude!

Please also pray for wisdom for me about when to fly back home. Allison and I have tickets on American Airlines to arrive in Oakland on Saturday afternoon....but I might need to get there earlier.... Allison is giving finals at her school this week, and I have two finals (Greek & Systematic Theology) to take--the last one being scheduled for Thursday night.... We are also still in need of someone to take care of Hershey (the sitter that we had lined up cancelled
last week).....

We covet your prayers during this time.....

For Him,
Kevin Peterson
http://youthherders.blogspot.com/
6146 Keeneland Pkwy. - Dallas, TX 75211 - 214-989-3291
NEW Cell Phone #'s: Kevin = 214-264-9003 & Allison = 214-264-9481


I'm sending last night's e-mail below, since many of you weren't included in that blast....
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Dear Praying Friends -

I just received a frantic call from my mom. She called 911 because my dad had fallen (according to mom, he's fallen a few times over the past few days). The paramedics deemed it best to take him to the hospital for treatment, but he refused. So she called me to see if I could talk him into it...but he would not listen to me... From what one of the neighbors said, his blood pressure is way up in the 150/130 region....

My dad was diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver a few months ago. Since then, he seems to be digressing physically. He's very weak--my mom has to help him get up, put on clothes, etc. He also seems to have lost hope for any sort of recovery...he mentioned to my mom that
he hoped that he would still "be here" when Allison & I fly out next Saturday...

I would greatly appreciate your prayers for my dad in several areas: (1) that he would consent to going to the hospital tonight (Saturday, 12/15); (2) for strength and healing for him; (3) for a will to live and to try to recover; (4) for his salvation. I would also appreciate your prayers for my mom, who is exhausted by the incredible challenges of trying to take care of my dad....and compounded by his refusal of treatment tonight.

Allison & I are flying out next Saturday, 12/22, to spend a few days with mom and dad in Rio Vista, California for Christmas before flying out to Orlando, Florida to be with Allison's folks... Please pray that we would be used of God to help see my folks come to faith in Christ while we're there.... (on a more mundane note, please pray that we'd be able to find a dog-sitter / dog-boarder for Hershey while we're gone -- the one that we had lined up cancelled a few days ago)

Thanks for listening and for praying!

For Him,

Kevin & Allison Peterson
6146 Keeneland Pkwy. - Dallas, TX 75211
NEW Cell Phone #'s: Kevin = 214-264-9003 & Allison = 214-264-9481


PS - Many of you have been praying for us since the break-in and shooting of Hershey last month. We're excited to report that Hershey has made a great recovery--she is now walking with a limp! And she's playing with her ball, etc. Praise the Lord!

And God has blessed us with a number of friends who sent money to help with vet bills, etc. Hershey's entire bill (and a portion of our deductible) has now been covered! Thanks to each of you who helped ease our financial burden--we greatly appreciate it! (We discovered a week ago that someone has been stealing our mail--we fixed that problem by installing a locking mailbox--so if you sent something and haven't received a "thank-you" note from us, your gift was likely stolen....)

Monday, November 19, 2007

Our House was Broken Into & Hershey was Shot! (Monday, November 12)

Original Report (Monday, 11/12/07):

To my friends:

At 4:10 pm on Monday, I arrived home to discover that our house had been broken into and that they had hurt Hershey...she was lying in our back bathroom, unable to move... As I waited over 90 minutes for the police to arrive, I tried to get ahold of Allison, who was having a drama rehearsal, but was unable to. I finally did contact one of her fellow teachers, who went back to the school and got her for me...

Our small group from the seminary stepped up in a BIG way. One couple came over to help me get Hershey loaded in my van and to wait at the house for CSI, and the other couple went and found Allison at work and drove her over to the emergency vet hospital in Irving where Kevin had taken Hershey.


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Update from Tuesday Morning (11/13/07):

Here is the morning update:
  • Hershey is resting comfortably at the vet. They believe that she will recover from being shot (yes, shot!) in a few days, as the spinal cord is intact and she doesn't seem to have any broken bones. It looks like the bullet bounced off of her spine and fragmented. The next few days will tell... (needless to say, all of her treatment is very expensive, but we're hoping that our homeowner's insurance will cover those costs)
  • A company that contracts with AAA came over around midnight & boarded up our broken window...
  • We've determined that the following things have been stolen:
    • Kevin's Mac Powerbook laptop (praise the Lord that I backed it up over the weekend!...and the thieves did not take the external hard drive!)
      • Related to that, I had foolishly left my password manager program open....so if someone really tries, they'll obtain access to all of my online stuff....so I have to change almost 200 passwords.....
    • Kevin's high school class ring
    • 2 - iPods (a mini & a 30GB video)
    • a bluetooth earpiece
    • our Canon digital camera (with a bunch of our pics on it)
    • Kevin's Laptop Backpack
      • the thieves kindly pulled out my class files & syllabii in addition to removing my Greek workbook & textbook -- nice of them
    • a nice book bag
    • some PS2 video games
    • a house key?
    • 3 flashlights
    • misc from our safe (but it does not look like any valuable documents.)
    • Allison's Palm Tungsten E2 PDA
    • 3 watches
    • a 2 GB flash drive
    • Greek vocab cards (left in my backpack)
  • We've also determined that they broke several things:
    • the window to come in...
    • the frame edge of the window next to it....they tried to pry it up with a chisel (& left the chisel behind)
    • the window screen
    • our safe (using my tools)
    • a hammer (trying to break into the safe)
    • my Sony PS2 video game console?
    • there is a bullet hole in our bedroom wall and in a storage case & in one of our bathroom closet doors....we found bullet slug #2 in the bathroom tonight....
I slept okay last night, but Allison did not sleep well at all.... I'm trying to make contact with the claims people from AAA this morning in addition to changing our bank account....

Please keep all of these things--especially Hershey--in your prayers over the next few days...

For Him,
Kevin Peterson

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Update from Tuesday Night (11/13/07):

Hi All -

We just got back from the VCA hospital where Hershey is and thought it would be an appropriate time for an update--it's been an eventful day!

I spent a good portion of the day taking care of financial matters. One of our concerns is that they had access to our financial info, both through my laptop as well as through ransacking our safe. It seems that we're in good shape on those ends of things at this point...

Hershey seems to be gaining some more movement, which is a positive sign. The vet had sent her x-rays off to a vet radiologist, and the radiologist said that things look good. Time will tell whether or not there might be complications, but things look positive at this point. But on a human / animal-lover level, it's very hard to see your beloved dog in discomfort at the vet hospital...

I finally spoke to an adjustor late this afternoon (after almost 23 hours of trying...). She wants to come out on Thursday to look at the damages, etc. But she had some very bad news for us: our homeowner's insurance will not cover any of Hershey's vet bill.... Animals are specifically excluded from coverage.... So it looks like we'll be paying off her vet bill in some other way....

Allison and I are both very drained. In fact, I don't know how she made it through the day of teaching--she got less sleep than I did, and I did not get very much!

We would greatly appreciate your prayers as we continue to walk through this time....

For Him,
Kevin Peterson

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Update from Thursday Night (11/15/07):

Here's the latest in the Peterson saga...

First of all: we brought Hershey home last night, and she seems truly happy to be home. The vet said that at this point they were just performing supportive care (keep her warm, fed, hydrated, drugged, change her bedding after she soils it, roll her over regularly, etc.),
and suggested that we could possibly do that at home. Since a day at the vet hospital runs between $300-$700, we opted to bring her home.... Hershey is still only able to move her back legs a little bit voluntarily, which is an improvement from Monday night. The vet thinks that is due to swelling in her spinal area where the bullet hit her in her neck, and that she will gradually improve over the next 7-21 days. The x-rays all seem to be negative toward anything else, but he did say there is a possibility that there might be a blood clot in the spinal area near the point of impact, but the only remedy for that would be a $1500 MRI (complicated by the bullet fragments in the area) followed by a $2000-3000 surgery, which are beyond our sense of stewardship.... He also suggested that if there is a clot, that it
might slowly dissipate on its own. So we watch, pray, and nurse her as best we can....

The AAA Adjuster came by this morning. I found out that we have a $1380 deductible, & they will reimburse us for replacement value on the items that were destroyed or stolen. They will also pay for a contractor to replace 2 windows (the one the thieves broke in through and the one next to it that they had tried to pry off), repair the bullet holes in the bathroom and bedroom, and to repaint both rooms. But they will not pay for the locks to be re-keyed or replaced (they would only pay for any locks damaged during the incident, and none of ours were....we're just concerned that they might possibly have gotten ahold of a key...). She was a very nice lady and gave me some helpful information about our insurance and possible upgrades to our policy--she even offered to donate some money towards Hershey's vet bill since pets are specifically excluded.

Please continue to pray for our situation. There are some items that are higher priorities for us to replace -- especially the laptop since I need it for my seminary studies. Please pray that the claim would be processed as quickly and as favorably as possible. Please also pray that God would provide for our financial needs. He provided very abundantly for us to move out here in July, for some unexpected car repairs in July, and for our early seminary costs. But the unexpected van repairs of the past couple of months (new head, transmission, etc -- over $3300, $720 of which was refunded to us) have exhausted our reserves. And the out-of-pocket expense on this incident looks like it will be around $4000 (almost $2500 in Hershey treatment + deductible + incidentals)...

Please also pray for Hershey's recovery. I know that on a scale of earth-shattering issues that confront the body of Christ, the recovery of a dog is such a small thing, but it's heavy on our hearts, so we ask for your prayers.... Pray as well that we would be strengthened so as to demonstrate the reality of God's working through a challenging time to the people around us.

Thank you so much...

For Him,
Kevin Peterson

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Monday night (11/19/07) update from the Petersons:

It's been a few days since we gave an update, so it's time to let you know what's been going on with us. Let's start with Hershey.

Hershey has been making some gradual improvement. Yesterday she almost stood all the way up a couple of times before losing her balance and falling. At first we thought that she had lost strength in her hindquarters, but we noticed over the weekend that it's a lateral weakness--she has a lot more strength & control in her left side than in her right side... And just this evening she did actually get all the way up and took about 1.5 steps before losing her balance and falling. We're encouraged!

We had to take her in to the vet on Saturday. We had brought her home on Wednesday night, and she had not had a bowel movement since then. We called the vet, and they said that we needed to bring her in. They were able to induce her to do her thing by way of an enema... So we have 2 requests in relation to Hershey: that she would regain strength & muscle control on her right side so as to be able to move without falling, and that she would be able to poop on her own. The 2nd one is much more urgent--she needs to start pooping on her own by Tuesday evening, or else we'll need to take her back in.

We have received a few unexpected blessings over the past few days. A student at Allison's school collected $350 from other students to help us with our expenses. Another family we know at DTS gave us $600 over the weekend... And we received a $100 check in today's mail from a family that I went to church with in Santa Rosa but that I haven't seen in years... All of these are huge blessings! God has already provided for about 1/4 of our losses... Thank you, Lord!

On the security front, I re-keyed all of our locks yesterday afternoon for only $11. Thank you Ron Thurow, who alerted me on how to do that. We're also planning on getting an alarm system installed, which we hope will be an effective deterrent... If any of you have any recommendations on that level, let me know...

We appreciate your continued prayers on our behalf. We greatly need them and greatly appreciate them!

For Him,
Kevin Peterson

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Thanksgiving (11/22/07) update from the Petersons:

Happy Thanksgiving to all of our friends! We trust that today was a day in which you reflected on the ways that God has blessed you and give thanks to HIm for that.

I am reminded of the words of George Washington in his proclamation that designated the Thanksgiving holiday for the United States: "...we may then all unite in rendering unto him [Almighty God] our sincere and humble thanks, for his kind care and protection..." Allison and I have much to be thankful for!

First of all, Hershey continues to improve physically. In our Monday night update, we specifically asked for prayer that she would start having bowel movements, and God has answered. Beginning Tuesday night, she has been pooping regularly. I know that this probably sounds wrong, but we praise the Lord for her poop! She's also getting around better, standing up several times each day and taking a few steps--or at least trying to do so. Just this morning she walked about 12 feet--we're thankful!

Secondly, we found out yesterday that the police had identified one of our intruders. One of the fingerprints that they got was of a 15 year old girl named Julia who is already in Juvenile Hall for another burglary. There were more people involved, but that's the only positive id to this point. It's kind of shocking that a 15 year old girl would be involved in not only breaking into a house, but shooting a dog along the way....

Thirdly, we had an alarm system installed at our house yesterday. Now all of our doors and windows are wired, and hopefully just the knowledge of that will serve as a deterrent to any future potential burglars. We felt that this was a necessary step since we heard that a home that has been burglarized has about an 80% likelihood of being burglarized again.... It gives a greater peace of mind for about $35 / month...

Fourthly, we had the blessing of spending the day with my best friend, Matt Montgomery, and his family. Matt and I have been best friends now for about 25 years, and it's a wonderful blessing to see him on a regular basis at Dallas Theological Seminary (the last time that we saw each other on a regular basis was when we shared a condo 15 years ago). Knowing that Allison and I were unable to travel to visit Allison's family as a result of Hershey's injuries and recovery, the Montgomerys invited us over to their home where we enjoyed a sumptuous feast and great fun and fellowship.

Fifthly, one of our neighbors, whom we met as a result of passing out flyers about our incident, gave us a smoked turkey yesterday. He serves as a police officer for Highland Park, which is an upscale enclave in the middle of Dallas. Each year, Sonny Bryan's BBQ gives turkeys to all of the HP police officers. He received his and gave it to us, since it was too much for he and his mom. We were blessed by his kindness.

Those are some things for which we're thankful this Thanksgiving. If we took the time, we could list a bunch more, but I hope that you're encouraged!

We would appreciate your continued prayers for us and for Hershey. Although Hershey's showing definite signs of improvement, she still has a ways to go on her road to recovery. Please continue to pray for her. We also would appreciate your prayers for our financial needs that are a result of this incident. We're encouraged by God's faithful provision for us so far, but we're going to have some pretty serious bills over the next month or so...and God has provided for only a portion of those bills up to this point....

Thanks for your continued prayers and support through these challenging days. We have felt both in very real ways...

Happy Thanksgiving, and may God richly bless you!

For Him,
Kevin & Allison

Friday, September 28, 2007

Our First Month in Dallas

Howdy! How ya'll doin'?

It seems hard to believe, but we've now been out here in Texas for almost 2 months now! I'm going to try to give a brief summary of the past couple of months in the next few paragraphs...

In June, after we knew that we were heading out to Texas, we began a "farewell tour". We traveled up to Northern California to visit my parents in Rio Vista, and to officiate a wedding of a former student (Mary Thengvall Rotman) in Santa Rosa. We were actually able to attend the morning church service at Santa Rosa Bible Church, where I served as a youth pastor for almost 10 years. It was a blessed time... On our way back to the San Fernando Valley, we spent an afternoon and evening in San Francisco, even visiting AT&T Park, the home of the San Francisco Giants. We also stopped in San Luis Obispo, visiting Allison's aunt & uncle and a few more former students.

Our farewell tour not only extended north, but south as well. We departed after the morning service at Northridge Christian Church to cruise down to Mexicali, where we attended the evening service at the Iglesia de Cristo in Ejido Puebla. As has been somewhat of a tradition, I was asked to preach about 10 minutes into the service... Not only did Allison get to experience a service at Ejido Puebla and to meet some of my favorite hermanos y hermanas, but she got to eat at my favorite taco stand in the entire world, Asadero los Molcajetes. After spending the night at the Siesta Inn in Mexicali, we headed over to San Diego, where we connected with our great friends, the Bairds (Greg, Michelle, Taylor, & Garrett--Greg is the children's pastor at Shadow Mountain Community Church and heads Kids in Focus, a ministry to equip children's ministry workers). We watched the San Diego Padres in their beautiful home park, Petco Field. After spending the night at the Bairds, we had brunch on the way back at the home of Allison's godparents, the Berriers, and then dinner with our great friends, the Painters (Gary, Patti, Jacob, & Jillian -- their daughter Jenna slipped into the arms of Jesus after a 16 month battle with cancer on Christmas eve this past year...please continue to keep them in your prayers...).

In between those ventures, I flew back to Dallas on a quick house-hunting mission by myself--talk about trust from Allison and heavy responsibility for me. I flew into Dallas on a Sunday night, only to discover that Enterprise Car Rental had closed down for the night -- a fact that took me over an hour to discover--leaving me to scramble to find another car rental late that night. After 2 full days of searching (preceded by many hours of online hunting while in California), I settled on a 7 year old home on hill in the Oak Cliff section of Dallas--1500 square feet on a 1/4 acre lot. We put an offer in and agreed to buy it for $91,000 (a comparable home in the San Fernando Valley of California would go for $600,000).

We finished up our ministry at the Northridge Christian Church in July, with a camping trip, a paintball war, a Disneyland trip, and a Vacation Bible School program. In our off moments, we also mixed in goodbye meals with friends...and packing as well...okay, Allison did the lion's share of the packing... We finished up VBS at noon on Friday, July 27. At 2 pm, a group of 15 friends showed up to help us load our Penske Truck, a process that kept us busy until 9 pm that night. We cleaned up our duplex on Saturday and packed up my office at church that night. On Sunday, July 29, we had our Avalanche Ranch VBS program, followed by a "5th Sunday Fellowship" brunch. This was the first time that Hershey ever attended a church service, albeit from my office... Around noon, we had said our final goodbyes and had a final tearful time of prayer with our youth, and Hershey & I hopped into the truck, while Allison and our good friend, Stefani Childs, hopped into our minivan, and our journey was begun.

We divided our 1458 mile trek from Northridge to Dallas into 3 stages. On Sunday, we drove all the way to Tucson, Arizona, arriving late that night at the home of Shawn, Jenifer, Nicholas, & Sawyer Sheppard, some great friends from my days in Santa Rosa. It's not every day that your mortgage loan broker actually puts you up for a night on your move! It was a great blessing to spend the night with them, and that blessing was greatened the next morning as Shawn's mom, Mandi, came by to visit with us. After a later departure than planned, we had an early dinner that night in Las Cruces, New Mexico, with Allison's great-great aunt (or something like that), Tincy. After a wonderful time with her, we hit the road again, spending the night in Odessa, Texas. After only a few hours of sleep, we hit the road again for Dallas, which was now only several hours away.

We pulled up to our new home around 1 pm that afternoon, and were confronted by a set of conflicted emotions. We were so excited to finally be homeowners and to be at our new home, but there was a mixture of disappointment at the state of the house (weeds up to 6 ft. tall surrounding our house except where a huge pile of dirt that was supposed to have been removed prior to closing had been compressed by a drunk tractor) mixed together with homesickness (not exactly the right word, but the sense that we had really left California and all of our friends and family there behind). At 2 pm, we were joined by our great friends, the Montgomerys and the Bakers, who helped us to unload our truck. A couple of hours later, we were joined by Allison's mom and dad, who had driven out from Florida to help us get settled.

We were immediately struck by the fact that we were in a much different climate than we were accustomed to in California. If you've ever been to Dallas or many other places in the sourth in the summertime, you know what I'm referring to. Within the first 10 minutes of working to detach the car carrier, I was completely soaked with sweat due to a brief moment of exertion combined with 98 degree heat and very high humidity. And this was a feeling that would continue for the next several hours as we unloaded the truck.

We arrived in Dallas on Tuesday afternoon, August 31, and Allison reported to her first day of new teacher in-service at Covenant Christian Academy (www.ccanet.org) on Thursday morning. Not quite an ideal transition.....but it was ours..... I, on the other hand, was not to start my classes at Dallas Theological Seminary (www.dts.edu) for another 4 weeks, so I focused my attention on doing projects around the house and finding a job.

This move to Dallas was one of the biggest stretches of faith in my life... Allison and I were convinced that it was God's plan for us to move to Dallas and for me to pursue my Master's Degree in Theology at Dallas Theological Seminary, but we were not sure how exactly that was going to work out... When we made the decision back in the spring, we had no assurance of job or finances, etc. We had also just suffered a significant financial setback in the form of a tax bill of several thousand dollars. But God made provision for us. First, Allison was offered a job teaching drama and high school girls' Bible at Covenant Christian Academy in the Dallas area (after being flown out to Dallas to interview at a different school). Then God provided finances for us...which were sufficient for us to buy a house, pay for our move, and to even pay for almost $4000 in unexpected car repairs that began in June. He also provided sufficiently for me to be a full-time student at DTS, instead of being a part-timer. Then He provided a house for us to call home.... And finally, He provided a part-time job for me. I got a job working almost 20 hours a week teaching / tutoring junior high students in math at a charter school in the southern section of Dallas.

There's a lot more that could be said, especially since we've now been in Dallas for almost 2 months, and a lot has transpired in those 2 months. Allison has been teaching for 7 weeks now, and I've been taking seminary classes for 4 weeks...which has been an inspiring and humbling experience. We have also been leading a Spiritual Formation group composed of 4 couples from seminary. Additionally, we have led worship at a small Southern Baptist church in Mesquite that seems to want to hire me to be their worship leader on a part-time basis. But this post is already too long, so I'll postpone some of those thoughts for my next one....

We would love to hear from any and all of you, so please drop us a quick e-mail note when you get a chance!

For Him,
Kevin & Allison Peterson

Saturday, June 02, 2007

Dallas Bound

I am convinced that God has a sense of humor... For most of my life I often said that I never wanted to live in Los Angeles, and where does God send me a little over two years ago? The north end of Los Angeles! I have also often thought that I would never want to live in Texas...and where is God sending us? Dallas, Texas! The moral of this part of the story: never say never to God!

At the end of July (July 29, to be exact), we will be driving our Penske truck (I'll never use U-Haul again--if at all possible--after the bad experience that I had moving down here from Santa Rosa in 2005) after our morning service at Northridge Christian Church on our way to Dallas, Texas.


Allison has been hired by the Covenant Christian Academy (www.ccanet.org) in Colleyville, which is just west of the Dallas - Fort Worth Airport. I will be attending Dallas Theological Seminary (www.dts.edu), pursuing a ThM (Masters of Theology) degree in Bible Exposition / Biblical Counseling, which usually takes 4 years on a full-time basis...so who knows how long it will take me... I currently don't have a job lined up, but am praying that God will open the door for me minister somewhere...


There are a few primary motivations for the move:
  1. We're convinced that seminary is a part of God's plan for me. I have always wanted to further my education, and now seems to be the time. When I moved down here to the San Fernando Valley, I had hoped to attend the Master's Seminary, but God closed that door.
  2. Allison and I desire to start a family. If God should enable us to do that, our conviction and desire is that she would be a stay-at-home mom while the kids are young...and that's very difficult in the economy of the LA basin--especially on a youth pastor's salary...
  3. We also desire to move from the renter category to the owner category. Tiny condos in ghetto neighborhoods of our current start at $300,000, and fixer-upper houses are closer to $500,000. That's well beyond our means. In the Dallas area, you can actually purchase a fixer-upper house for less than $50,000, and a decent home for under $100,000.
We do have a few friends in Dallas: my best friend, Matt Montgomery, and his family are in Dallas where Matt is attending Dallas Theological Seminary, and my former intern and good friend, Mike Baker and his wife Zoe, are living in Dallas while Mike is attending the seminary and serving as a youth pastor. A couple of friends from Allison's school also are living in the Dallas area.


We are excited about God's leading and following His calling, but we are saddened to be leaving our friends and ministries here. We'll also be considerably closer to Allison's family (her brother and sister-in-law and their kids are in St. Louis, and her parents live just north of Orlando, Florida, in a huge retirement community called The Villages), but will be considerably further away from my family (my parents live in a little town by Stockton, California called Rio Vista, and my brother lives in Sacramento).

We would greatly appreciate your prayers as we transition out of West Valley Christian School and Northridge Christian Church and make our way east at the end of July... Two specific requests are for our housing and for employment for me.

For His Glory,
Kevin & Allison Peterson

Monday, December 25, 2006

Christmas 2006 Greetings from the Petersons

I don’t know about you, but it really seems to me that every year seems shorter than the previous year.... I guess that’s just a sign of old age...

As I’m writing this letter, it’s Christmas Eve--just hours away from Christmas. Allison & I thought it would be good to let all of our friends & family know some of our highlights for this past year, so here we go:

I’ll start with the constants: I have continued to pastor the youth at Northridge Christian Church (www.nccworship.com) in addition to overseeing the children’s & music ministries. Allison has continued to teach junior high Bible at West Valley Christian School (www.westvalleychristianschool.com)--I substitute there a few times a month--in addition to serving at my side at church in the youth & music ministries and generally functioning as my much better half in our journey of life!

2006 began with a bang for us--literally. Our first of two accidents involving three of our parked cars occurred on New Year’s Day, totalling Allison’s Ford Escort. In March, a guy high on drugs plowed into both of our cars... Praise God for good car insurance!

In February we took some of our youth up to Lake Tahoe to the home of Rod & Jimetta Mayne for our Winter Retreat. It was a great time of fun, worship, & fellowship in the snow.
The only bummer was getting stuck in a snowstorm & related traffic jam on the way up, delaying our arrival ‘till 4 am.

In March we attended the Purpose Driven Youth Ministry Conference at Saddleback Church in Orange County. It was a challenging & refreshing time brightened by the attendance of Mike & Zoë Baker (former students of mine from Santa Rosa--now ministering to youth in Dallas, Texas while attending Dallas Theological Seminary).


Over Easter Break in April, we travelled up to my parents’ home in Rio Vista, where I performed a private ash scattering ceremony for my Uncle Ray,
who had passed away around the first of the year. On that same trip, I got to speak to the college group from my old church in Santa Rosa--it’s always enjoyable to visit with former students!

May seems to have been too busy to have a singular highlight, except for Allison speaking at our church’s All Daughters’ Tea as “Hillbilly Nillie”,
which was very well received.

June found Allison wrapping up her school year & us taking our youth on a weekend camping trip at Malibu Creek State Park, which is less than twenty miles away, but feels like it’s a world away from the crazyness of L.A.


In July
we celebrated our first anniversary. Our anniversary weekend proved to be the hottest weekend of the year (just like our wedding weekend last year), with temperatures reaching 119°. Allison’s folks also came out to visit, which was very nice!

August was a crazy month! The first week was our church Vacation Bible School program, which went very well! In the second week, we took our youth to the DCLA conference, which is a student evangelism conference co-sponsored by Youth for Christ & Youth Specialties. God provided funds for us to take a group of ten through an unsolicited donation of $3000--He is so good! In the last full week of August we flew back to Dallas to visit our great friends, the Montgomerys (Matt, Rachel, Joel, Josh, & Hannah) and the Bakers (Mike & Zoë), as well as to visit Dallas Theological Seminary, where I subsequently began taking online courses.




September found Allison back teaching and me back doing whatever it is that youth pastors actually do, which is one of the great mysteries of churchdom. We kicked off the month with an all-night youth event......maybe I’m getting too old..... In the middle of the month we travelled up to Sonoma County to officiate the wedding of Josh & Ashley (Johnson) Young.


In October I celebrated my 41st year off coffee, which not coincidentally began the day I was born.

At the beginning of November I went on a “Life-Vision Retreat” for my Spiritual Life class--24 hours alone with God exegeting my past and present with a view towards planning my future. It was a special time where God once again confirmed His direction for me in youth ministry! We celebrated Allison’s 40th birthday on the 4th (her birthday is actually the 8th) with a party that had about 75 celebrants and featured a 2 hour music & mime show. Over Thanksgiving weekend we travelled back to St. Louis to be with Allison’s family and to officiate the wedding of Allison’s brother, Ken, to Jill.
We now have 2 nieces, Kaia & Josie, and 2 nephews, Stephen & Jack.

December has been full of school, friends, & ministry. We’re leaving tomorrow to visit my family for a couple of days before closing out the 2006 edition in the Life of the Petersons.

May you experience the riches of God’s amazing grace in 2007!

Love,

Kevin, Allison, & Hershey

PS - Right after finishing this letter, we received the very sad news that little Jenna Painter went to be with the Lord around 11 pm on Christmas Eve after a 16 month battle with brain cancer....please keep the Painters in your prayers...

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Resolutions of Jonathan Edwards

THE RESOLUTIONS OF JONATHAN EDWARDS (1703-1758)

BEING SENSIBLE THAT I AM UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING WITHOUT GOD'S HELP, I DO HUMBLY ENTREAT HIM BY HIS GRACE TO ENABLE ME TO KEEP THESE RESOLUTIONS, SO FAR AS THEY ARE AGREEABLE TO HIS WILL, FOR CHRIST'S SAKE.

Remember to read over these Resolutions once a week.

  1. Resolved, that I will do whatsoever I think to be most to God' s glory, and my own good, profit and pleasure, in the whole of my duration, without any consideration of the time, whether now, or never so many myriads of ages hence. Resolved to do whatever I think to be my duty and most for the good and advantage of mankind in general. Resolved to do this, whatever difficulties I meet with, how many soever, and how great soever.
  2. Resolved, to be continually endeavoring to find out some new contrivance and invention to promote the aforementioned things.
  3. Resolved, if ever I shall fall and grow dull, so as to neglect to keep any part of these Resolutions, to repent of all I can remember, when I come to myself again.
  4. Resolved, never to do any manner of thing, whether in soul or body, less or more, but what tends to the glory of God; nor be, nor suffer it, if I can avoid it.
  5. Resolved, never to lose one moment of time; but improve it the most profitable way I possibly can.
  6. Resolved, to live with all my might, while I do live.
  7. Resolved, never to do anything, which I should be afraid to do, if it were the last hour of my life.
  8. Resolved, to act, in all respects, both speaking and doing, as if nobody had been so vile as I, and as if I had committed the same sins, or had the same infirmities or failings as others; and that I will let the knowledge of their failings promote nothing but shame in myself, and prove only an occasion of my confessing my own sins and misery to God.
  9. Resolved, to think much on all occasions of my own dying, and of the common circumstances which attend death.
  10. Resolved, when I feel pain, to think of the pains of martyrdom, and of hell.
  11. Resolved, when I think of any theorem in divinity to be solved, immediately to do what I can towards solving it, if circumstances do not hinder.
  12. Resolved, if I take delight in it as a gratification of pride, or vanity, or on any such account, immediately to throw it by.
  13. Resolved, to be endeavoring to find out fit objects of charity and liberality.
  14. Resolved, never to do any thing out of revenge.
  15. Resolved, never to suffer the least motions of anger towards irrational beings.
  16. Resolved, never to speak evil of anyone, so that it shall tend to his dishonor, more or less, upon no account except for some real good.
  17. Resolved, that I will live so, as I shall wish I had done when I come to die.
  18. Resolved, to live so, at all times, as I think is best in my devout frames, and when I have clearest notions of things of the gospel, and another world.
  19. Resolved, never to do any thing, which I should be afraid to do, if I expected it would not be above an hour, before I should hear the last trump.
  20. Resolved, to maintain the strictest temperance, in eating and drinking.
  21. Resolved, never to do any thing, which if I should see in another, I should count a just occasion to despise him for, or to think any way the more meanly of him. (Resolutions 1 through 21 written in one setting in New Haven in 1722)
  22. Resolved, to endeavor to obtain for myself as much happiness, in the other world, as I possibly can, with all the power, might, vigor, and vehemence, yea violence, I am capable of, or can bring myself to exert, in any way that can be thought of.
  23. Resolved, frequently to take some deliberate action, which seems most unlikely to be done, for the glory of God, and trace it back to the original intention, designs and ends of it; and if I find it not to be for God' s glory, to repute it as a breach of the 4th Resolution.
  24. Resolved, whenever I do any conspicuously evil action, to trace it back, till I come to the original cause; and then, both carefully endeavor to do so no more, and to fight and pray with all my might against the original of it.
  25. Resolved, to examine carefully, and constantly, what that one thing in me is, which causes me in the least to doubt of the love of God and to direct all my forces against it.
  26. Resolved, to cast away such things, as I find do abate my assurance.
  27. Resolved, never willfully to omit any thing, except the omission be for the glory of God, and frequently to examine my omissions.
  28. Resolved, to study the Scriptures so steadily, constantly and frequently, as that I may find, and plainly perceive myself to grow in the knowledge of the same.
  29. Resolved, never to count that a prayer, nor to let that pass as a prayer, nor that as a petition of a prayer, which is so made, that I cannot hope that God will answer it; nor that as a confession, which I cannot hope God will accept.
  30. Resolved, to strive to my utmost every week to be brought higher in religion, and to a higher exercise of grace, than I was the week before.
  31. Resolved, never to say any thing at all against any body, but when it is perfectly agreeable to the highest degree of Christian honor, and of love to mankind, agreeable to the lowest humility, and sense of my own faults and failings, and agreeable to the golden rule; often, when I have said anything against anyone, to bring it to, and try it strictly by the test of this Resolution.
  32. Resolved, to be strictly and firmly faithful to my trust, that that, in Proverbs 20:6, “A faithful man who can find?” may not be partly fulfilled in me.
  33. Resolved, to do always, what I can towards making, maintaining, and preserving peace, when it can be done without overbalancing detriment in other respects. December 26, 1722.
  34. Resolved, in narrations never to speak any thing but the pure and simple verity.
  35. Resolved, whenever I so much question whether I have done my duty, as that my quiet and calm is thereby disturbed, to set it down, and also how the question was resolved. December 18, 1722.
  36. Resolved, never to speak evil of any, except I have some particular good call for it. December 19, 1722.
  37. Resolved, to inquire every night, as I am going to bed, wherein I have been negligent--what sin I have committed--and wherein I have denied myself--also at the end of every week, month and year. December 22 & 26, 1722.
  38. Resolved, never to speak anything that is ridiculous, sportive, or matter of laughter on the Lord's Day. Sabbath evening, December 23, 1722.
  39. Resolved, never to do any thing of which I so much question the lawfulness of, as that I intend, at the same time, to consider and examine afterwards, whether it be lawful or not; unless I as much question the lawfulness of the omission.
  40. Resolved, to inquire every night, before I go to bed, whether I have acted in the best way I possibly could, with respect to eating and drinking. January 7, 1723.
  41. Resolved, to ask myself, at the end of every day, week, month and year, wherein I could possibly, in any respect, have done better. January 11, 1723.
  42. Resolved, frequently to renew the dedication of myself to God, which was made at my baptism; which I solemnly renewed, when I was received into the communion of the church; and which I have solemnly re-made this twelfth day of January, 1722-23.
  43. Resolved, never, henceforward, till I die, to act as if I were any way my own, but entirely and altogether God's, agreeable to what is to be found in Saturday, January 12, 1723.
  44. Resolved, that no other end but religion, shall have any influence at all on any of my actions; and that no action shall be, in the least circumstance, any otherwise than the religious end will carry it. January 12, 1723.
  45. Resolved, never to allow any pleasure or grief, joy or sorrow, nor any affection at all, nor any degree of affection, nor any circumstance relating to it, but what helps religion. January 12 & 13, 1723.
  46. Resolved, never to allow the least measure of any fretting uneasiness at my father or mother. Resolved to suffer no effects of it, so much as in the least alteration of speech, or motion of my eye: and to be especially careful of it with respect to any of our family.
  47. Resolved, to endeavor, to my utmost, to deny whatever is not most agreeable to a good, and universally sweet and benevolent, quiet, peaceable, contented and easy, compassionate and generous, humble and meek, submissive and obliging, diligent and industrious, charitable and even, patient, moderate, forgiving and sincere temper; and to do at all times, what such a temper would lead me to; and to examine strictly, at the end of every week, whether I have done so. Sabbath morning. May 5, 1723.
  48. Resolved, constantly, with the utmost niceness and diligence, and the strictest scrutiny, to be looking into the state of my soul, that I may know whether I have truly an interest in Christ or not; that when I come to die, I may not have any negligence respecting this to repent of. May 26, 1723.
  49. Resolved, that this never shall be, if I can help it.
  50. Resolved, I will act so as I think I shall judge would have been best, and most prudent, when I come into the future world. July 5, 1723.
  51. Resolved, that I will act so, in every respect, as I think I shall wish I had done, if I should at last be damned. July 8, 1723.
  52. I frequently hear persons in old age, say how they would live, if they were to live their lives over again: Resolved, that I will live just so as I can think I shall wish I had done, supposing I live to old age. July 8, 1723.
  53. Resolved, to improve every opportunity, when I am in the best and happiest frame of mind, to cast and venture my soul on the Lord Jesus Christ, to trust and confide in him, and consecrate myself wholly to him; that from this I may have assurance of my safety, knowing that I confide in my Redeemer. July 8, 1723.
  54. Whenever I hear anything spoken in conversation of any person, if I think it would be praiseworthy in me, resolved to endeavor to imitate it. July 8, 1723.
  55. Resolved, to endeavor to my utmost to act as I can think I should do, if, I had already seen the happiness of heaven, and hell torments. July 8, 1723.
  56. Resolved, never to give over, nor in the least to slacken, my fight with my corruptions, however unsuccessful I may be.
  57. Resolved, when I fear misfortunes and adversities, to examine whether I have done my duty, and resolve to do it, and let the event be just as providence orders it. I will as far as I can, be concerned about nothing but my duty, and my sin. June 9 and July 13 1723.
  58. Resolved, not only to refrain from an air of dislike, fretfulness, and anger in conversation, but to exhibit an air of love, cheerfulness and benignity. May 27 and July 13, 1723.
  59. Resolved, when I am most conscious of provocations to ill nature and anger, that I will strive most to feel and act good-naturedly; yea, at such times, to manifest good nature, though I think that in other respects it would be disadvantageous, and so as would be imprudent at other times. May 12, July 11, and July 13.
  60. Resolved, whenever my feelings begin to appear in the least out of order, when I am conscious of the least uneasiness within, or the least irregularity without, I will then subject myself to the strictest examination. July 4 and 13, 1723.
  61. Resolved, that I will not give way to that listlessness which I find unbends and relaxes my mind from being fully and fixedly set on religion, whatever excuse I may have for it-that what my listlessness inclines me to do, is best to be done, etc. May 21, and July 13, 1723.
  62. Resolved, never to do anything but duty, and then according to Ephesians 6:6-8, to do it willingly and cheerfully as unto the Lord, and not to man: “knowing that whatever good thing any man doth, the same shall he receive of the Lord” June 25 and July 13, 1723.
  63. On the supposition, that there never was to be but one individual in the world, at any one time, who was properly a complete Christian, in all respects of a right stamp, having Christianity always shining in its true luster, and appearing excellent and lovely, from whatever part and under whatever character viewed: Resolved, to act just as I would do, if I strove with all my might to be that one, who should live in my time. January 14 and July 13, 1723.
  64. Resolved, when I find those “groanings which cannot be uttered” (Romans 8:26), of which the Apostle speaks, and those “breakings of soul for the longing it hath,” of which the Psalmist speaks, Psalm 119:20, that I will promote them to the utmost of my power, and that I will not be weary of earnestly endeavoring to vent my desires, nor of the repetitions of such earnestness. July 23 and August 10, 1723.
  65. Resolved, very much to exercise myself in this, all my life long, viz. with the greatest openness, of which I am capable of, to declare my ways to God, and lay open my soul to him: all my sins, temptations, difficulties, sorrows, fears, hopes, desires, and every thing, and every circumstance; according to Dr. Manton' s 27th Sermon on Psalm 119. July 26, and Aug.10 1723.
  66. Resolved, that I will endeavor always to keep a benign aspect, and air of acting and speaking in all places, and in all companies, except it should so happen that duty requires otherwise.
  67. Resolved, after afflictions, to inquire, what I am the better for them, what am I the better for them, and what I might have got by them.
  68. Resolved, to confess frankly to myself all that which I find in myself, either infirmity or sin; and, if it be what concerns religion, also to confess the whole case to God, and implore needed help. July 23, and August 10, 1723.
  69. Resolved, always to do that, which I shall wish I had done when I see others do it. August 11, 1723.
  70. Let there be something of benevolence, in all that I speak. August 17, 1723.